Sadness with Mustard

Nowhere

but in the alone

and vast

where nightmares don’t end

after you awake.

Might we all assume

that this sobbing

means sorrow?

But this crushing

it rests on my tongue

behind my eyes

and entwined

in my stomach;

left me talking to any specter

or apparition

dumb enough

to haunt me

in the alone

and vast

and we need help.