Double Ellipses

I told myself to turn on something

familiar and reassuring;

euphoria immediately

and inevitably

followed by dread and anxiety.

With eyes closed

still

in still

delirium trigger.

Simultaneously detecting

rejecting

subtle changes

in the earth

in the atmosphere.

In the empty ocean

and in the swirling reality

of decaying superficiality

testing the resiliency

of my small

finite population.